I have too many thoughts. And, this week, those thoughts have been none to cheery. I'm in the midst of the unhappy place, surrounded by confusing thoughts, too much work, not enough fun... I know it's pretty common for me to get down, so nobody will be surprised. But it always hits me out of the blue.
Everything just seems to be getting the better of me at the moment. I'm exhausted and not getting anywhere near as much study done as i should. I've been skipping a few classes, mainly because of work and said exhaustion, and i just can't seem to catch up. I don't seem to be making much headway at work, everything just takes hours. My work and uni schedules don't match up very well this semester and i constantly have that feeling that i'm supposed to be somewhere else. The person whom i'm meant to turn to when i'm feeling crap is also having a bad time of it, so once again i'm keeping things bottled up and it's like having something rotting inside of me. Horrible.
Tomorrow, i have to be at the gym at 8am. Then, somehow, i have to get to stateswim by 8.50am for a stupid fill-in shift. Goodness knows why i said i'd do thursday mornings for the next three weeks... i'd forgotten how much i detested getting into that pool. And then i have to find some time to go to work. Not to mention that i have two classes from 2-4pm that i really shouldn't skip... yet i can already see that happening, just as it did last week. Which would be ok if i was on top of my readings - but i'm not. And i possibly have a meeting tomorrow night. It's going to be a shittastic day. Really, i'd just like to sleep in and read all day. Wishful thinking.
Friday night i'm going to the movies alone. Because i'm that cool. There's something that i want to see and there's nobody i can drag along with me to see it... so i'm going alone and hoping to hell that it's going to cheer me up (interesting theory, seeing as it's My Sister's Keeper and i'm almost definitely going to get emotional...).
As usual, i feel that if i can just hang on until the weekend, i'll have enough time to get my bearings and pull myself together enough to battle it through the next week. But at the moment, the weekend just seems so, so far away...
Everything just seems to be getting the better of me at the moment. I'm exhausted and not getting anywhere near as much study done as i should. I've been skipping a few classes, mainly because of work and said exhaustion, and i just can't seem to catch up. I don't seem to be making much headway at work, everything just takes hours. My work and uni schedules don't match up very well this semester and i constantly have that feeling that i'm supposed to be somewhere else. The person whom i'm meant to turn to when i'm feeling crap is also having a bad time of it, so once again i'm keeping things bottled up and it's like having something rotting inside of me. Horrible.
Tomorrow, i have to be at the gym at 8am. Then, somehow, i have to get to stateswim by 8.50am for a stupid fill-in shift. Goodness knows why i said i'd do thursday mornings for the next three weeks... i'd forgotten how much i detested getting into that pool. And then i have to find some time to go to work. Not to mention that i have two classes from 2-4pm that i really shouldn't skip... yet i can already see that happening, just as it did last week. Which would be ok if i was on top of my readings - but i'm not. And i possibly have a meeting tomorrow night. It's going to be a shittastic day. Really, i'd just like to sleep in and read all day. Wishful thinking.
Friday night i'm going to the movies alone. Because i'm that cool. There's something that i want to see and there's nobody i can drag along with me to see it... so i'm going alone and hoping to hell that it's going to cheer me up (interesting theory, seeing as it's My Sister's Keeper and i'm almost definitely going to get emotional...).
As usual, i feel that if i can just hang on until the weekend, i'll have enough time to get my bearings and pull myself together enough to battle it through the next week. But at the moment, the weekend just seems so, so far away...
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