God Talk

Winter or Spring

It seems to me that finding God is like finding eternal spring. Yes, it still rains and bad things still happen. But there are bursts of sunshine and new life and, most importantly, hope. Without God to give you hope, life is more like winter, with more rain and cold than anything else.

The problem lies in the fact that, without having found God, it's difficult to find the hope and strength to believe at all. Once you've found spring, it's easier to hold on to it maybe.

This is really just a half-formed idea. I don't know what i mean, exactly. But it seems that life with God is better than life without Him, because He gives you something to lean on, someone to trust, someone who is always there.

But, in the rain showers that come with spring, you feel that talking to someone who can't conventionally talk back isn't enough. You feel that He isn't actually there, or that He's taking a hiatus from me. It's always tougher when it rains.

Either way, the spring is better than the winter, where you feels like He's never there at all, and maybe He didn't even exist...

I can't decide if i'm in a winter or am just in a spring where it rains all the time...

Annie