Hmmph

A Little Grumble...

You know how i'm always saying that i like to make life interesting? Well, i do. Otherwise, duh, it's boring! Giving the amount of time spent in hysterical laughter over one of my many mishaps, disasters or adventures, i think it's safe to assume that i provide interest to a certain extent. Even the arguments we have are interesting (think 'the worms have no parents', 'if you swim our from glenelg you hit antarctica' or 'it was NOT random, je n'ai pas un poutant!', etc)

While, for the sake of amusement, i don't mind being semi-ridiculed, totally dissed, made the subject of a what-not-to-do discussion, a source of hilarity over something i got up to, the one person who refuses to agree for the sake of argument.... there's still a line between laughing WITH me (thankfully, i can laugh at myself) and laughing AT me. Even laughing at me GOOD-NATUREDLY and MEANLY. Good-naturedly is ok. Otherwise, no.

Why am i seemingly ranting over nothing? Probably making no sense, sounding ridiculous and once more making an idiot of myself? Well, recently, it has come to light that some people will sit there and listen to people who have a totally wrong impression of me. While they sit there with their mistaken impressions, which don't put me in a good light, some people feel that they can sit there and just listen. Not correct anyone, just listen, happy to keep what they know to be different to themselves. Even that would be ok if they didn't say anything because they didn't get a chance, didn't really know the people, whatever. But if the reason you give in your 'defence' is 'it was funny', then i'm not happy. Even after i say that that's horrible, if you're insensitive and silly enough to reply 'so? it was funny' then... well, i'm definately not happy. If you follow that up with 'there isn't a different between laughing at and with you. same thing.' and various other comments that make me feel like something on the bottom of your shoe... All i can say is just THINK before you totally disregard the feelings of another person for your own selfish need to find amusement. If you want a good laugh try talking to me, not talking about me with someone else, who doesn't even know who i am. Sound boring? Deal. I'm not here to become a laughing stock.

It sounds like i'm pretty mad. I suppose on the scale of things i'm not really - i'm getting used to this. But i must say it kind of sucks when your friends would rather laugh at you than defend you... it just got to me. I probably brought it on myself or something anyway. Whatever. I hate mistaken impressions! Sorry.

Annie