Avoidance

So, i've been avoiding my blog. I really hate it when that happens, even though it's self inflicted. I can't say (up until tonight at least) that i've been hanging out in the 'dark place' (Grey's Anatomy reference), but i've definately been in the place where doing anything that involves effort - other than going to the gym and swimming a few ks at the insistance of my mother - is beyond me. Blog =effort. I couldn't even manage to churn out a Heads or Tails.

But hey, i'm back for now at least. So here's what you missed...

We had church in the park on sunday night, which was pretty cool. Granted, there was nobody there that i really hang out with, so i spent an hour on the see-saw bouncing the kids up and down and watching them do tricks on the monkey bars. I spent awhile finding pictures in the clouds for them to look at, which kept them amused for awhile. The service was short and sweet, and ShirtlessBuddy turned up afterwards to hang out for awhile. I 'raced' him home in my car while he was on his bike - he thought he could beat me... he's an ideallistic little dude.

This week? I saw George off on her overseas adventures, and I had a two-and-a-half hour lunch with Loz and the Librarian. We caught each other up on the last six or so months, arranged the sugar packets numerically (did you know that the sugars at the BWC have little numbers on them?) and the pair decided that they'd join the crew of my fantasy magazine; Loz was going to be the Shoe-spert (like expert) and the Librarian was destined to be 'Astro-Librarian' and make p fabulous horoscopes for us all. It'll be a rocking magazine when it gets off the ground.

I, after a huge fight with my parents about the amount of books i have, scored an IKEA bookcase to fit into the last available space in my room perfectly. I no longer have piles of books littered around the room, so i'm much happier. I also finally cleaned my car with dad. It's as close to spotless as i could get it at the HappyWash... i'm scared to go outside tomorrow and see how dirty it's gotten overnight!!

I had a huge fight with mum tonight. It was annoying becuase it seemed like we were both fighting about different things. Money, possessions, what other people have, i-pods, blah blah blah... it was all very confusing and upsetting. It ended with her leaving the room saying 'whatever, i'm just a terrible mother then' - even though i said nothing of the sort. I swear, when i say things in an argument, she just hears something completely different. It's insane, and it doesn't serve to make me any calmer. I would have been upset enough that we argued, as we've been getting along reasonably well at the moment. But i was even more upset because somehow i managed to hurt her - even though i didn't say a word against her or dad. She just was twisting everything that i said! I have no idea what happened... but somehow, it's knocked me from my state of semi-stability. Now, i feel like crap.

Lucky me, i get to go back to work tomorrow. At least that will get me out of the house and away from my mother. I can't wait to be thirty years old, living on my own, with close friends, a means of support... basically, any existance other than the one i have at the moment would be to my liking. Note the return of 'dark annabel'. Grr...