It came up that i always like the wrong people. Fact. Then one of the girls pipes up with this little gem; haha well ***** wasnt wrong u just didnt know when to let go when it wasnt working.
I take offense at that.
Everyone assumes that it was a huge mess because of the way i felt about him, that i wouldn't let go. They seem to forget the fact that i was willing to leave it at friendship, because i'd take what i could get, and that he was just as bad as me when we were left alone together - worse in fact, because he'd lie about wanting to be with me, and couldn't help leading me on. Somehow, now, it's all my fault. Why? Why was the whole big mess not partly his fault? Why do i have to take all of the blame for us? There's no denying that it was a mess. But it wasn't my fault for 'not letting go'. I was in love with him and there's no reason that i shouldn't have been, or any reason why i should feel that that was wrong. There's no timeframe for letting go; don't judge me and think that i'm stupid because of the way that i felt.
I take offense at that.
Everyone assumes that it was a huge mess because of the way i felt about him, that i wouldn't let go. They seem to forget the fact that i was willing to leave it at friendship, because i'd take what i could get, and that he was just as bad as me when we were left alone together - worse in fact, because he'd lie about wanting to be with me, and couldn't help leading me on. Somehow, now, it's all my fault. Why? Why was the whole big mess not partly his fault? Why do i have to take all of the blame for us? There's no denying that it was a mess. But it wasn't my fault for 'not letting go'. I was in love with him and there's no reason that i shouldn't have been, or any reason why i should feel that that was wrong. There's no timeframe for letting go; don't judge me and think that i'm stupid because of the way that i felt.
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