I had a semi-ephiphany tonight at church.
I'm always thinking that i'm not really happy. That's not to say that i don't have fun sometimes, but i do tend to be steady on a 'less than happy' mood level. I don't smile as much as i used to, and i don't have the energy to do my fake-happy either. I'm forever thinking that 'surely things will get better at some point'. Damned high expectations.
Tonight, i thought that perhaps my expectations of life are simply too high. Maybe this is all there is, and mundane mediocrity will be it from here on out. If i could get used to life being like this, then maybe it'd make me happy and things would have to be even worse before i could be unhappy.
So. The latest plan is to adjust my expections for life. Perhaps i just need to be a little more realistic about things!
I'm always thinking that i'm not really happy. That's not to say that i don't have fun sometimes, but i do tend to be steady on a 'less than happy' mood level. I don't smile as much as i used to, and i don't have the energy to do my fake-happy either. I'm forever thinking that 'surely things will get better at some point'. Damned high expectations.
Tonight, i thought that perhaps my expectations of life are simply too high. Maybe this is all there is, and mundane mediocrity will be it from here on out. If i could get used to life being like this, then maybe it'd make me happy and things would have to be even worse before i could be unhappy.
So. The latest plan is to adjust my expections for life. Perhaps i just need to be a little more realistic about things!
1 comment:
ah..that's something i need to master too..
maybe our expectations just are too high
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