Well, i'm back in Oz, finally, after many more delays! I've caught up with the girls, started organising my uni and jobs and settled back into the slightly slower paced life that i led before heading off on my jaunt overseas.
When people ask if i had a good time, they generally get the same response; "yea, i had an amazing time, it was fantastic". Which it was. That does encompass the trip. But it doesn't really say much about what i did - most people don't really want to know too much about what i did, because they weren't there and people just aren't built to care that much about other people (they don't want to hear about all the fun i was having without them!). Some of the girls heard all of the wild stories though!
I know i said i was ready to come home, but if i'd had the chance, i think i would have stayed. I do love adelaide, and i know that i'll appreciate it more and more as i get older. And it's not even the amazing experiences that i miss, the culture and the fun. But because i'm missing the person that i was over there and the company that i had. When i was on contiki, i was happy and relaxed. I felt good, i laughed, i had fun, i was confident, i danced, i was comfortable with myself. I loved it. I miss it - i've been back here three days and i'm stressed, tired, i feel sick, i'm back to being shy, quiet, flat, strung out... i've got to find a way to pick myself up and be that contiki-person again. A wise man told me that the contiki-me was my equivalent of my alter-ego (now dubbed 'Bella' - because that's just a name which is so much cooler in my mind, and something i'm definately not). So there's my goal - get her back.
For now, i'll just have to get things in order and remember what i great time i had away. I can't wait to do another contiki, or go on another holiday!! More adventures await.
Annabel
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