i don't want to go to church. i don't want to i don't want to i don't want to. i have SO MUCH work to do. i feel sick. i'm tired. feeling like crap is not my favourite emotion. right now, going out and spending time with people who are making my life hell is NOT going to help. i don't know if i can last another five weeks until i can have some time off. and even then, i have to put everyone else's needs before mine, and change my melbourne trip to see my sister and meet my niece, because god forbid i be able to make my own decisions. i want a new life. any chance that's going to happen? nope, don't think so.