Would Love To Mean The World To Someone

It's been a long week. Very uni-work oriented. Therefore, very boring. The beginning of the week saw me in a deep, dark hole of awful. That's gotten slightly better as the week has progressed. But i've still got that pit in the bottom of my stomach that makes me feel a little icky. Kind of lonely, and sad and quaky. I don't know how to make it go away for good, but i've got a pretty good idea of what will make it go away temporarily. The solution will fill that icky feeling in my tummy. However, the solution is playing hard to get this week. Which serves to make the icky feeling worse.

I realise i am most probably making no sense. Nothing new, i know. But i hate being miserable, numb, icky (yes, i shall use the term icky to describe my current mood, deal with it). I could just be patient and wait for the thing that will make it better. Or maybe i need to realise that what i'm hoping will make things better is just a trick of the light, and really nothing that's going to be around long enough to make my world a little better?

It's too hard to tell what the right thing to think is. Maybe i'm just a fool to think that there's a happy ending somewhere around here.