Life in the Unknown...

Beyond School

I've always planned to post about the end of school and the beginning of everything else. Now that exams are drawing to a close, there's not much time left to write it before it becomes a reflection, rather than a prediction! So, here it is.

After nearly thirteen years of school, i've now spent considerably more than half of my life in a place where we've had a constant system of support and encouragement. Every action i've taken has been influenced by other people who are being paid to be our mentors. I'm not saying that they don't care, or that they're heartless, by any means. I just mean that we've spent life with someone holding out hands in so many ways. Leaving that environment is going to be incredibly frightening. If something goes wrong, there won't be a teacher to help us out, nobody to offer guidance and nothing to surround us with comfort when needed.

In one way, i'm relishing the chance to get out and do my own thing. Finally, i'll be away from the private school mould, or even just the school mode, that i've been in for so long. I'll be able to try my own thing, have more independace and grow up, as ridiculous as that may sound. However, the problem with breaking out of the mould is that i'm a little afraid that, much like jelly, i'm just going to give a little wobble and fall apart. I'm not too sure what i want to do with my life (which is an entirely other post). Plus, once you're out there in the big, scary, unfair world that we all know is out there, you're really on your own. As much as you'd like to think that you've got friends and family with you along the way, you are really the only person that you can count on. What if you can't handle it? Then everything would kind of unravel, wouldn't it? Now that's a freaky thought.

In many ways, i'd be perfectly content to never grow up, to stay and live my life in the hovel, to keep things nice and simple. But i know that that's silly and that i will probably enjoy the real world one i'm out there.

Overview of that possibly confusing ramble? I'll be heading out into the real world to try it on my own and it is going to be preeeettty different. No more people to guide and advise. At least, none that are being paid to - now any help will have to be volountary! :P

So, that's it for my little insecure ramble about next year - had to be done.

Ta-ta for now!

Annie